tragedi tragis!

I think i have super power.
mcm superman kot.
yeah! Klang to Seremban in 50mins. its a record!!
but i guess it should be less than that kalau tiada konvoi itu.
ya! konvoi di pagi hari membuat pemandu F1 ini menggagau tekan brake.
giler ko. tengah drive 140km/h tetibe kne hit brakeeee nampak 3 org abg misai merentangi highway.
mau mati kejung den tengok. #$%^&!!! marah betul den.
oh my god! ntah2 abg misai ni nak saman den bawak laju mcm kne penyakit lembu giler atas highway.
abes la duit gaji den nanti. fuh kiri fuh kanan. mintak2 tak kene.
eh..apesal je semua kereta pun kne berhenti. giler dahsyat semua orang brake separuh mati.
its 7.00am in the moring kawan2. plus its the highway heading to KLIA. those yg nak kejar flight sure bawak kereta dah macam bwk jet pejuang.
then from our left nampak another 5-6 motor abg misai lagi diikuti oleh kete2 VVIP of course those V6, BMW and MerC. sgt yakin itu kereta menteri atau setaraf dengannya. and in between that, ada sebijik bas tertera JPN.
and due to this convoy yg bergerak dengan lemah gemalai di lane paling kanan, i only able to drove dengan kelajuan yg amat maksima yakni 90km/h. dh tu takkan nak flash lampu dari belakang kat rombongan abg misai tu suruh ketepi. mahu kne hempuk dengan helmet ala-ala satria baja hitam itu.
i was prayingg soooooo hard that they will enter the KLIA exit. pengsan dek non ni nak nun ggu sampai somban dengan kelajuan 90km/h. plus kesian tengok those kereta LIMO airport yg duduk mencucuk dari belakang saya ni. heh abang LIMO, sila duduk diam. ko cucuk2 pun bukan saya leh potong abg misai and the convoy team ni. bersabar hokay. bersabar. and fuh! my prayer telah terjawab. ya! mereka masuk ke exit KLIA. dengan muka tak malu saya terus tekan minyak potong. one of abang misai kalih and look at me.
senyum and angkat tangan je la. dah tu? abg nak tengok saya sampai somban jam sembilan pagi ke?

no! its not my daily routine to drove 90km from klang to seremban ke tempat kerja.
sekali sekala je di hujung minggu.
but yesterday is different.
i have too T________T

as you knew, i spent my weekend di kediaman rasmi hafiz dan aimi di kulim yang indah permai itu.
reached seremban on sunday night at almost 11.50pm.
exhausted and a felt a bit unwell since i'm having flu. sampai rumah, turn on the porch light and kitchen light.
makan ubat and roger hubby before ZZzzzzz...
around 2.25am, received a phone call from jiran sebelah rumah.
"pintu dapur yg kat luar tu terbukak".
zapppp! nak tercabut jantung den. rasa nak pitam seketika.
yes! kitchen door yang heading ke luar itu telah terbukak.
happen that my neighbour punya anak pulang setelah berjimba2 bersama kawan2 beliau ternampak my kitchen door terbukak. of course he can see it clearly sobab den memang bukak lampu dapur.
he went in and saw kesan tapak kasut berlumpur. of course! it was raining heavily outside earlier.
he enter my kitchen and luckily there is another door from dining to kitchen which i always ensure it was cloased most of the time. he knew that the person didnt break in as the door is still berkunci and in good condition. he went in and told his mom. pastu omak dia suruh den kunci pintu itu. bahaya tu. bahaya.
dengan ketaq lutut ni pun, saya pergi la keluar ke arah kitchen and look the door. seriously memang pintu intu telah ter'unlock'.
frankly! saya memang pernah sekali je bukak pintu tu. dah tu wat pe nak keluar dari dapur kan? pintu depan ada. and sekali tu pun sebab den yang cerdik ini tidak berjaya membukak pintu depan. and it was like monthsss ago. eh tak..sebulan yang lalu. nama pun baru duduk seremban 1.5mnths.

still shaking. roger hubby.
after awhile, hubby suruh tidur balik and baca doa banyak.
but, ye! saya msih trauma. ketaq lutut tak habis. jantung mcm baru sahaja berlari 4x100m.
i'm soooo scraed. ase nak drive balik ke klang. tapi biler pikir what will happen on the way nanti lagi payah.
i locked all the doors. tried to put myself back to sleep.
rungsing.
fall asleep few minutes then terjaga.
and there is time i fall asleep and start bermimpi as if someone is breaking inside the house and enter my bedroom.
waaaaa! ngeri hokay. bangun dengan cemas mcm memerlukan CPR.

i woke up 5.50am. mandi and bersiap untuk ke tempat kerja. ini merupakan record paling awal saya bangun untuk ke tmpt kerja wlupun ofis hanya 20mins drive je.
pack my stuff and sgt nekad mahu pulang ke klang habis kerja nanti.
frankly, dengan 180km which i have to drove from seremban-klang-seremban and toll fare which in total of rm24.40, i must say, its still worth it. dari saya tak tidur malam bukan?
tonigh akan merempat di rumah a fren of mine. heading to singapore tomorrow.
yeayyy!

oh! tomorrow is my birthday. happy birthday to me. another year older. takpe..saya terime dengan hati terbuka. sebab still much-much more younger then my hubby. ahahahha...
at age of 24 yrs old, saya sudah achieved something very big in my life.
saya sudah berkahwin!! wahhaha..mudanya saya kahwin *baru sedar*.
but yes, saya berbangga dengan pencapaian diri. eh bukan. bukan. bukan berniat mahu riak atau bangga diri, tapi mahu berbangga dengan pencapaian diri. apekah? ayat macam lintang pukang pulak.
sudah melepasi perit jerih mengumpul wang untuk berkahwin. yeayyy!!
ko ingat senang? meh try dulu. sudah boleh berfikir dengan tenang sekarang. boleh membeli sesuatu yang romantis untuk diri sendiri *haruslah membeli sesuatu untuk diri sendiri sebelum membelikan untuk org lain*.
ahahhaha...

and hubby, thanks for the advance birthday dinner. kamu sungguh schweet.
this year tidak se'romantic' birthday dinner tahun lepas.
this year hanya di VS. but still, thanks for the dinner. the oxtail soup and the sizzling steak sangat awesome!!
baiklah..sila bersyukur aimi.
by the way, suami, mana hadiah saya???

Dilemma?

I hate myself when i need to choose between two.
between having handbag in purple colour or red colour.
or between to choose skincare cap ayam or cap kambing
or between staying at home or out for cuci mata+wallet

i hate it soooo badly.
i always wish i could have both.
can i have both?

the longest dilemma ever i have to think about is when i need to decide to accept this new job over my husband. eh! bukan over my husband. between kot. *ada beze ke?*
but of course, career and husband is something uncomparable. giler kau!! mana sama. jauh beze.

today, another dilemma came and knocks my door. tak mo bukak pintu but i have too T_____T

mama call up and mention about to carik kain baju melayu for my ayah, angah and abang.
last year, i am the one who accompany my mama to hunt for it. mama a bit fussy when it comes to 'pakaian' *bukan pakaian je, semua bnde kot dia fussy*
she is not the kind of person aci rembat je kain for baju melayu even tough she knew that my bro will only use it once in a blue moon je sebaik sahaja selepas hari raya pertama. but still mama cakap "biar mahal asal selese. sebab dieorg bukan beli bajur kurung banyak2 pasang mcm kita"
yes! and the only place yg mama boleh jumpa kain idaman for the baju melayu hanyalah di GUlatis or Euro Moda to be exact kat Jalan TAR. Gulatis tempat lain dia kata tak banyak pilihan.
Furthermore, there will be a wedding on this sunday. anak kawan my mama yg kahwin. of course, she need to attend the wedding. but since my father have course to attend (some sort like certificate by UM since beliau pencen) on Sunday, he cant make it to the wedding and yes!! mama tak tau nak pergi dengan sapa.

hubby in the other side kena standby this week *again*.
which mean ye, saya kena pulang ke Kulim *again* weekend ini.
i told hubby to switch dengan his fren and blablabla.. but still he insist. sebab he said dia dh banyak kali sangat asyik tukar2.
saya : then macam mana? tak jumpa ke weekend ni?
hubby : hmm..takpelah. jumpa next weekend.

gosh!! mudahnya kamu cakap begitu ye sang suami. nak tercabut jantung dengar. and again my tears dengan gatalnya keluar dan keluar dan keluar. straight away letak telefon without saying goodbye.
i was hoping dia akan beralah and balik sini.

next weekend wedding cousin hafiz and jiran belakang my mom house pulak.
dah tu tak de dah masa nak teman mama ke KL.
the next weekend nye pulak wesak day. yep! kne balik kulim lagi. T_______T

life wasnt that easy huh?

few attempts and failed.
why i keep on writing something to be posted here and half way, menemui jalan buntu. sangat buntu sehingga hampir ke bontot.

rindu sama cik blog. kerja seperti biasa menimpa saya dengan banyak. nasib saya ini gagah perkasa seperti incredible hulk. saya biarkan saja. sungguh. tak tipu. saya belek2 kerja2 yang telah dinobatkan kepada saya seperti mereka nobatkan Miss Universe itu. sungguh banyak. setiap hari memang sentiasa banyak. kau tidur di opis pun belum tentu mampu settlekannya. production running 24jam. what to expect rite? kamu kerja hanya 9.5hrs tak termasuk masa kamu curik tulang membeli barangan secara online, berlenggang kangkung ke surau, pergi ke koperasi tatkala merasa lidah perlu sesuatu yang manis. juga extra masa untuk break time.
maaf. saya memanfaatkan my break time. both breakfast and tea break saya tidak ke cafe. tetapi saya menjamu mata melihat jualan secara online. ya! menjamu mata sehingga duit di dalam maybank saya telah kempis seperti mengambil jamu susut perut.
blame to the maybank2u!!!!

going off to singapore next week for business trip. gembira bukan? but..but...its only one day trip! keji nye mereka. tak nak bagi saya tidur sana. oh! tak sempat nak berbelanja besar (walhal duit telah nyawa-nyawa ikan).
i have kegilaan yg baru.
yakni kegilaan terhadap bulu mata pellllsssuuuuuu.
oh mengapa dan mengapa.
currently i owned 2pairs of bulu mate pelsuuuu from stage. heh! terpengaruh dengan my MUA- Lan.
i bajet Rozita Che Wan la konon.
bought few additional pairs. 7 pasang kesemuanya. dan the falsie applicator. lepas ini memasang bulu mata pelllsuuu semudah satu dua tiga.

last weekend went out for shopping with hubby. biasa la, being me sentiase mencari alasan untuk membeli baju baru. haruslah kan? kerja hari2. dah tu jemu la nengok baju same je kan?
i went to cosmetics section. i alwaaaysss love mascara. ntah la ape kene. i owned more than 7tubes. but my most fav so far haruslah DIOR SHOW.
while i belek2 the mascara, hubby said : "takyah la..dah banyak dah"
-sigh-
tak sukenye! memang la dah byk. tapi nak lagi. dan lagi dan lagi.
went to another side. and ehem...found the BB Cream mcm bace kat forum.
nope! not that expensive type of BB Cream yg berharga ratusan ringgit. yg itu harus dibentangkan dlm belanjawan june nampaknya. its a HEME BB Cream cost around rm80 je.
sangat tergoda sebab tengok that SHE pakai ni and muke nampak flawless giler babeng (or mmg kulit dia flawless dah?)
then hubby said  "kalau yang ni nak beli takpe. takyah la beli yg panjang2 bulu mata tu"
panjang2 bulu mata? yepp! he is referring to mascara.
waahhaha..tapi dia tak cakap tak leh beli bulu mata pelllsuuu. plus, ia dibeli secara online. wahahhaha....

i miss hubby. ye ye.. saya tahu. kamu sudah jelik mendengarnya.
pasti sudah hampir vomit blood tatkala perkataan MISS itu keluar.
meh ko kahwin then duduk jauh2 dulu. baru tau apa yg sedang saya rasakan *poyo*
i know we were lucky that we still can meet each other over the weekend. walaupun beratus kilometre harus ditempuhi bukan.
compare dengan those yg hanya berjumpa sebulan sekali ke, beberapa bulan sekali ke, setahun sekali ke. tapi nak juga cakap saya rindu suami saya.
by now, i already can accept the fact that yep, 5days je pun then we will unite again. *tapi masih gak nangis*
part of me i knew that this will be for lonnnngggg period of time. yes,excatly! hubby didnt show any sign of moving here. to south. nope!
not even applying for any job. can you believe that?
i've cried few times due to this but at the end of the day i came to realize.
i cant force him to move here.
he had been soooooo supportive by allowing me move down here to south.
for the sake of the salary, career development and future of our family.
but i never tried to understand what he wanted in his career. he loves his job that for sure.
but above all, he lovesss his current company.
i told him like millions of time that he should move his bump and work elsewhere.
but still. he insist.
yes. i'm proud of him for what he already achieved. its not easy for those kulit sawo matang to reach that level. ini bukan racist ya. when all kulit putih dan mata kurang bulat is always the center of attention and ALWAYS got promoted (yes! now it does sounds like racist), those kulit sawo matang is hard to be in any level or promoted. unlike him i must said.
hubby sangat hardworking. darah dan daging hubby sudah seperti kepunyaan pihak syarikat.
ahhahaha..i called him goldfish. he is such a goldfish to his previous manager.
incik david sangat sayang sama kamu ya suami? saya cemburu!
it will tough for hubby to move to another company. he is IN the comfort zone i must say.

but still.
part of me. the teeny weeny part still tried to convince that hubby akan pindah.
ia...satu hari nanti. masih berharap.

sooo excited with the coming Hari Raya *walaupun puasa ganti tak habis lagi*.
1st time beraya as a wifey. excited you!
baju raya telah di buat beberapa pasang. ahahahha... melepas gian. sebab last raya buat 3helai je kan. time tu kumpul duit nak kawen.
heading to dzul classique after office today. hantar baju melayu sang suami utk dijahit dan ambil baju raya saya yg telah siap.
few other baju kurung at another tailor yg telah di hantar tempah seawal april.
jangan tak tahu noks, tailor sudah mula stop tempahan. habisla dik non dik non takde baju raya nanti.
ngeh..ngeh..ngeh...