hopeless.

you just can't wake up in the morning hoping that today will be as good as yesterday
*
you just cant pray that today will be as sunny as yesterday since rain may come in between
*
you have to stop thinking that your boyfie will be the same person once you married him
*
you just cant figure out why on earth your husband is treating you in such way and wishing he never did so
*
you just cant stop your heart being broken by others as its something soooo unforseen
*
you just dont know how much people might hurt because of your words and also same in return
*
you just hoping that you have one big happy family and everyone is grinning untill its aches but in reality its just ordinary family with a lots of arguments,tears, and joy
*

my wood swing 360 degrees today. blame the pms!
everything seems not in place.
my works is piling sky high and i need to leave on time today since i will be carpooling with my fren to north.
hubby seems so irritating today which needs me to end the conversation without saying goodbye.

why everything doesnt turn out the way i wanted it to be?

i hate this!

and pls get me pregnant...so that i will be no longer need to deal with this PMS *good excuse wasnt it?*

Bunyi yang sepi...

The Sound Of Silence Lyrics
Artist(Band):Simon and Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools" said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence.

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence."


*This is hell one good song. especially when you are always have this little miscommunication with the other half..*

Mari Memasak bersama Chef Two!!

Memasak?
Kedegaran sangat Alien. Apabila disuruh memasak umpamanya sama seperti menyuruh saya membajak di bendang padi.
atau pun menoreh getah.
takpun mengait buah kelapa sawit.

one tough task ladies!

frankly, saya sangat buta kuali.
buta senduk.
buta periuk.
buta rempah ratus.
buta jenis ikan dan segala buta yg berkaitan masak memasak.
i never knew nama ikan unless it was stated in hypermarket macam kat Giant or Tesco. Andai la dia tersalah label between ikan Yu dan ikan kembong, yakni termakanlah kamu kuah laksa berasaskan ikan Yu->sedap kot eh?

Nampak tak kat sini? saya sangat ZERO bab masak memasak.

ZERO.EMPTY.BLANK.

Talking about recipes with is like you are talking in totally different language. as if you are coming from Pluto and you are the Plutonians. or perhaps, kamu bercakap bahasa binatang sehingga ia sukar ditafsir kewarasan akal fikiran.

Before i even engage to my hubby, my mom telah membuat pengakuan berani mati on behalf of me walaupun saya tak mintak kepada my future in law (pada masa itu) regarding anak-perempuan-saya-yang-tergedik-nak-kahwin-tu-sebenarnya-tak-tahu-pun-masak.
see? there is two different thing between tak tahu and tak pandai.
if my mom cakap, dia tak pandai masak is more like referring to : dia tak la pandai masak semua masakkan, tapi tau la masak sikit2. but she using DIA TAK TAHU MASAK instead.
finee! i have the coolest mom in the world which telling my future mother-in-law that her super beloved daughter is ZERO in cooking. sangat KAYU bab masak.
alhamdulillah, my in law still terima dengan hati terbuka "Takpa la, esok lusa dah kahwin pandai la dia masak".
Amin.

1. Yes..my mom just taknak my future mother in law expect saya tahu masak and rasa tipah tertipu apabila dah kawen only to discover, err..menantu dia potong bawang pun senget-senget.
2. And of course, my super sweet mother in law sangat positif perihal ini.

tipula saya kata kalau nasi pun tak reti masak. oi! tu basic orang melayu tuh. masak nasi and goreng telur mata kerbau kalau tak tau jangan la jadi orang melayu. baik jadi orang uganda ->ke orang uganda pun tahu?
of course saya tahu masak nasi, goreng telur, masak maggi kari, masak maggi indo mi, masak air dan panaskan lauk dalam microwave ->eh..panaskan tu kire masak ke?

Alhamdulillah..ever since saya berkahwin, banyak sungguh perkembangan yg dirasakan.
selain perkembangan fizikal, pengembangan berat badan serta pengembangan size baju, saya berjaya memasak. kahkahkah..tidakla sehebat Iron Chef. gler kau. dah name nye buta kuali ade hati nak setanding mereka.

saya sudah tahu membuat nasi goreng. hooorayyy!
sudah tahu membuat ayam masak merah. hoooorayyyy!
sudah tahu memasak sphagetti (setelah diajar oleh sang suami). hooorraaaayy!
sudah tahu memasak ayam masak kicap (pun suami yg ajar). hoooooraaaayyy!
sudah tahu memasak sambal sotong dan sambal udang. hhuuuuuraaaahhh!
and few dishes yg lain.

alhamdulillah...walaupun ia seperti level kepandaian memasak kanak-kanak berusia 8tahun, saya tetap nak happy. eh, at least tak la makan kedai tiap hari kan?

everyday i will browsing internet for simple recipes.
mcm macaroni cheese etc.
mama kata slow2 and praktis selalu.

my in law juga sangat supportive. mengajak saya bersama membuat roti jala dan kuah durian last weekend.
oh nyahhh! i dah rasa level chef wan. tapi i chef two je. kang sama dengan chef wan tak terlarat plak nak dapat offer masak memasak kat tibi nih.

and to Anne & Nady. this two girl always inspired me with all this plutonians talked in fb or blog. bake cakes, cuppies, masak itu and masak ini. gulp! yes..compare to this two ladies...i'm waaaay behind.
but still..saya berjalan itik ke arah itu...

Anne, thanks for the caramel recipes for the dummies. hope both of you and nady come out with a book "COOKING INSTRUCTION BOOK FOR THE DUMMIES..to someone like Aimi".

1) Puasa sudah dekat. bermakna, raya semakin hampir. seperti tahun2 sebelumnya, saya wajib menyimpan 2-3hari puasa untuk diganti sehingga hampir ke bulan puasa barulah ia ganti. ia seperti trend saya. kahkahkah...trend la konon. alasan diberikan : nak praktis puasa sebelum start bulan pose nanti.

2) my weekend was great. disamping dapat memeluk dan mencium suami (oi..jangan jeles. halal babe...halal) dan bertangisan di hari ahad seperti kebiasaan.

3) menanam cita-cita untuk sambung belajar. jeles plak saya nengok mcm semua org sibuk menyambung belajar. bila la nak start belajar ni. sambung belajar = no new car. nampaknya pakai la kereta bumble bee itu sampai berderai. T_____T

4 ) setiap hari berhajat mengemas rumah apabila pulang kerja. tapi sampai je rumah, pastinya terus syahid. nak makan pun rasa seperti...aduh! mcm disuruh men'cangkul' di tengah panas terik pulak. barangan masih didalam kotak (some of it la). sedang mencari ruang waktu kerajinan untuk membukaknya. tragis betul.

5) juga berhasrat dan telah melahirkan hasrat sebanyak empat ratus empat puluh empat kali kepada sang suami untuk bekerja di sektor kerajaan. banyaknye cuti i nanti. 2.5kali ganda banyak dr sekarang. auwwww... jeles u! tapi..tapi..tapi... bab bonus-bonusan nih... alahai sodihnye omakkkkkkk. sungguh dipersimpangan dilema.

6) rindu untuk menyibukkan diri membuat wedding preparation. waaahh.. kenapa saya sgt rindu saat itu? takkan nak kahwin lagi kot. mahu kena silambam. and as replacement, otak sibuk membuat preparation cukur jambul baby. padahal, baby pun tak melekat lagi. sigh~!

7) the meet up with the bff sangat best.

and ribs at tony roma's sungguh mengasyikkan.

(*pics taken from anne & aqiss iphone. i simpan jer my android T____T)

dan kamu Nadrah, pls came down to KL when aqiss balik dr Melbourne next time ya.

8) And a new friend i met from the IT Dept was so shocked when i told her that i'm married. she said " i thought you just complete your studies. you look so young"...errr..nope.. i had 2yrs working experienced what. =))

apa kes nak cemburu?

SAYA GEMBIRA


Petang ini mahu nge’date’ sama Muhammad Dayang Anne dan Ahmad Dayangku Balqis. Suami, sila cemburu sekarang jugak! Sudah lama tidak ketemu sama Ahmad Dayangku Balqis. Semenjak usia saya 15thn. Eh, baru la lagi kan. Bukan last year je ke umur saya 15tahun?
Muhammad Dayang Anne juga sudah lama tidak ketemu. selama usia perkahwinan saya.
hikhikhik..
Harap besabar Nadrah.



SAYA RASA JENGKEL

Kenapa kalau sebut annoyed lebih best dari sebut jengkel? Hmm..ok, saya sangat jengkel dengan teman sepenjenayah…eh bukan, teman sekerja yg sering bragging kepada saya dan mengulangi sehingga 4 kali ayat yg sama didalam setiap conversation bahawa global grade (level dlm jawatan) beliau lagi tinggi dari saya. Oh kamu mahu saya sujud dikaki kamu seperti menyembah tuhan di zaman mesir kah jikalau global grade kamu lebih tinggi dr saya walaupun ia hanya satu tangga je beze? Kamu di 10 saya hanya 9. Tapi sedarkah kamu gapped umur kita jauh berbeda? Eh… u r 6yrs older than me. Perlu ke kamu membuat comparison seperti itu? And setelah terlalu fed up diatas pengulangan ayat kamu seperti banyaknya siaran ulangan didalam Astro, saya telah meng’shut-up’kan kamu dengan statement menghiris jiwa “tak kisah la kan kalau GG* tu beze..tapi my salary and ur salary beze just rm500 je pun”.bukan niat menyingung, tapi memang saja buat kamu tersinggung.

Nah! Amik kau. Napa ada manusia sebegini? Tak perlu berasa cemburu atau remindkan org itu bahawa gred kamu rendah. Sapa suruh kamu sibuk2 tanya gaji orang. Sibuk sungguh nak jaga tepi handbag orang. Lepastu bagitau satu dunia gaji kamu berapa dengan harapan satu dunia akan kagum? Excuse me, berjuta lagi makhluk dunia gaji byk dr kamu ya.

Saya juga tak pernah pun cakap kat akak2 operator tu "eh akak..sila hormat saya sekarang jugak sebab akak operator je"

Juga apabila kamu sering compare kereta saya dengan kamu. Saya rasa amat jengkel sehingga mahu terkeluar isi perut yg menjamah sandwich pagi tadi. "yela...u parking senang la. Bawak kereta kecik myvi je. Mcm i bawak persona,susah tau". Uishhh..besaq nya keta hang. Besaq dr limosine sampai susah nak parking na. Nanti la i sarankan dekat General Manager utk membuat parking space besaq just utk parking limosine kamu.

*apesal ayat saya mcm cemburu kat dia plak? Bluek..bluek…bluek..tak perlu cemburu*



SAYA RASA TERUJA

Pindah ke rumah baru. Rumah sewa baru itu super small. Seriously kecik je. Half of our kulim house. Sumpah tak tipu! Kecik sampai kalau masuk dapur boleh berlanggar bont*t. oh lupa! Saya mmg bont*t bersaiz J.Lo ->perasan.

Mereka bilang itu apartment, tapi bagi saya ia bagaikan sebuah rumah flat atau lebih kecil dr flat.

Pindah rumah sangat memenatkan. Tapi menggembirakan. Eh.. mcm penat tapi gembita. Mcm mana nak explain?

Malang sungguh berbau tengik, rumah baru tiada P1 wimax. By the way, P1 mmg langsung takde di Negeri yg mempunyai Sembilan daerah ini. And, tiang talipon pun tak wujud di kawasan rumah saya.

Tidaaaakkkk! Padahal, Tmpoint just opposite area rumah saya. Korang bayangkan!

No tiang telefon = no talian telefon = no streamyx.

And I have to subscribe berukbang. Oh sadis! Barangkali berukbang juga tidak terlalu ok di kawasan itu.

Oh no, saya bukan ddk di 3rd world area. Rumah saya sungguh modern dan maju. Kahkahkah.. maju ke?

Fine, but it is really situated depan Giant senawang oiiii. Depan senawang commercial area. Tu tak cukup maju ke? Just 7mins to office saya, pun tak cukup maju ke? Sungguh… kini saya lebih percaya dengan KEDAH MAJU 2010. Kulim maha hebat. P1 ada. Tiang talipon ada. Winet broadband utk kwsn kulim pun ada.

Argh!