Sunday, February 28, 2010

oh my..oh my..oh my baby be..

Its 3am in the morning.
and yes saya masih ber'blog'.
menemani sang suami menonton Stoke vs Arsenal.
tak pernah dibuat seumur hidup saya menonton bola sehingga jam 3pagi.haruslah dpt anugerah dekan kalau tekun cmni blaja sampi pukul 3am.

actually saya tak leh tidur. entahlah,sejak 2minggu berkahwin,saya sgt gedik.susah nak tidur kalau sang suami takde.
memang gedik.
mesti korang rasa nak bagi penampar sakti je kan.
eh..sukati la..nak gedik ngn hubby sendirik.halal hokay..halal...
sgt la over kan? tp kalau dh ngantok gaban sure tidur punye la kalau hubby takde kat sebelah pun.
kalau bom meletup pun tak sedar kalau dah ngantok kan.

sebeno2nye saya just not that sleepy lagi. so while menemani sang suami menonton bola, leh gak la mem'browse' internet.
just come back from watching THE BOOK OF ELI
 
Movie ini tidaklah sehebat yang dibayangkan. lebih sudu dari kuah. eh? apekah ini? betul ke peribahasa ni?
padan muka saya. selepas menggoda sang suami untuk membawa saya dinner ke manhattan fish, saya yg gedik2 pilih movie ni. amik koooo....tak best pung...
sang suami almost fall asleep. dah lah tengok midnight oi. pkl 12.10am baru masuk. pkl 2am baru abes. 
jalan cerit agak perlahan. dan conflict juga la dlm jiwa sbb cerita ni pasal mamat ni yg kunun2 cam nabi la nak save the last bible dalam dunai fter the final war.cenggitu la yg dapat di synopsis pendek oleh puan aimi. malas nak type pepanjang. gi tengok sendiri kalau nak tau lebih lanjut.
bukan TGV ke GSC ke bagi komisyen kan? *eksen sekarang ko aimi dah kawen ni*

saya mengalami conflict dalaman.
ye saye tau. conflict dalaman tidak semestinye harus lontar keluar.
kalau dah di lontar keluar, rasa dah tak nama conflict dalaman dah kan. dah jadi conflict luaran pulak.
ahhh...fening la pulak dengan ayat sendirik.
i was a bit too far regarding getting conceive.
yeah! berjaya juga meluntarkan ia keluar. yep! ini confession dari saya *backgrpund lagu usher-confession pleaseee*
saya tahu, perkahwinan berusia 2minggu cuma.
and i know this is not the race. but my surrounding membuatkan saya rasa to get conceive ni dah macam acara lumba lari. tak pun marathon.ke jogathon...ke sumpama dgnnya. bile membace blog2 mereka yg baru berkahwin, semua dah conceive on the very 1st month.
saya tetiba plak merasakan i'm part of the race as well desperately need to conceive ASAP.
frankly, this week sahaja saya dah dua kali do the pregnancy test.
waaaaa...
malu hokay nak reveal secret yg sepatutnya untold. tapi biarlah..sekadar berkongsi kan.
of course the result in negative *yet so far la*.
browse internet. tak puas ati napa negative.
then baru discover,unless we purchase higher hucg contents kat pregnancu kit tu baru kite leh detect either kite pregnant or not before your period. hokay!! my next period schedule in 10days from now.
obviously it does not appear kan, dah pakai pregnancy test kit yg biase2 je.
ohhh..saya sound sgt desperate now.
and tadi after dinner, i'm desperately eyeing for the pregnancy test yg suggested by the web yg konon mak nenek leh check ur pregnancy result even before u period.
haruslah takde kan. org malaysia tak pernah nsk menyebok tau pregnant ke tak awal2 mcm saya kot.
itu la pasal tak kecoh2 pun watson nak jual.
argh!! @$%$!@#$%...

and today i got flu. serious flu yg meleleh tahap air paip yg tak leh tutup pili.
giler meleleh sgt geliks ok.
bt i'm fighting myself not to consume panadol soluble. what if im pregnant and i consume panadol?
ahahahaha..
silly me!!

and before the movie, i spontaneously tanya sang suami. "syg, am i going to far to get pregnant"...
surprisingly jawaban yg memang amat saya duga. "yes dear" gulp!! hakikat ni..hakikat...terima aimi. jangan pengsan. movie tak start lagi!!!
sang suami : you buat i risau kalau u tak leh pregnant. baru 2minggu. masih awal lagi.
saya : i know..i know... are you stress with all of this?
sang suami : *cuma senyum jek*
cam tu la lebih kurang conversation nye..dah tu tak de la saya nak ingat every single word kan? saya bukan bawak pita perakam a.k.a recorder mcm wartawan nak tulis sebijik2 ayat sang suami.

memang benar kata sang suami. masih awal. baru 2minggu. what do you expect?
lain people lain period of time to get pregnant. ye betul some people bunting pelamin.
and some people to get pregnant after few months, ada yg sampai bertahun baru pregnant,
my mom bunting pelamin when she pregnant my sis. while my sis pregnant only a year after the wedding. but still...deorg semua dapat anak. its just the matter of how soon or by when you will get one.
ini semua kuasa allah. kalau dah allah kata belum lagi masanya, korang buat 24jam sehari pun takkan dapat *giler lucah setelah menjadi puan ye ko aimi*
but itulah hakikatnye.
moving forward,i promised my self to enjoy every single moment as a wife but not too worry on how or when. so people, jangan tanya saya or ill feel the pressure again.

dear hubby, thanks for your endless love. haruslah sang suami sakit jantung bila discover si isteri do the pregnancy test on the 12days as hubby kan. 
no pressure on you dear. let it be the natural way. kite kan masih muda. eh..eh...bukan...
i yg muda. u tu tua. 


 

3 comments:

annetize said... [Reply to comment]

psycho dah kau ya my!

nady said... [Reply to comment]

aok. saal namanya. ya nang saal eh!

.:Mrs Hafiz:. said... [Reply to comment]

uits...
cuba kitak org jd bini lok.
then ktk org rasa.
raca nak amazing race dh tok.
ahahahhaha

 

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