hopeless.

you just can't wake up in the morning hoping that today will be as good as yesterday
*
you just cant pray that today will be as sunny as yesterday since rain may come in between
*
you have to stop thinking that your boyfie will be the same person once you married him
*
you just cant figure out why on earth your husband is treating you in such way and wishing he never did so
*
you just cant stop your heart being broken by others as its something soooo unforseen
*
you just dont know how much people might hurt because of your words and also same in return
*
you just hoping that you have one big happy family and everyone is grinning untill its aches but in reality its just ordinary family with a lots of arguments,tears, and joy
*

my wood swing 360 degrees today. blame the pms!
everything seems not in place.
my works is piling sky high and i need to leave on time today since i will be carpooling with my fren to north.
hubby seems so irritating today which needs me to end the conversation without saying goodbye.

why everything doesnt turn out the way i wanted it to be?

i hate this!

and pls get me pregnant...so that i will be no longer need to deal with this PMS *good excuse wasnt it?*

Bunyi yang sepi...

The Sound Of Silence Lyrics
Artist(Band):Simon and Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools" said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence.

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence."


*This is hell one good song. especially when you are always have this little miscommunication with the other half..*

Mari Memasak bersama Chef Two!!

Memasak?
Kedegaran sangat Alien. Apabila disuruh memasak umpamanya sama seperti menyuruh saya membajak di bendang padi.
atau pun menoreh getah.
takpun mengait buah kelapa sawit.

one tough task ladies!

frankly, saya sangat buta kuali.
buta senduk.
buta periuk.
buta rempah ratus.
buta jenis ikan dan segala buta yg berkaitan masak memasak.
i never knew nama ikan unless it was stated in hypermarket macam kat Giant or Tesco. Andai la dia tersalah label between ikan Yu dan ikan kembong, yakni termakanlah kamu kuah laksa berasaskan ikan Yu->sedap kot eh?

Nampak tak kat sini? saya sangat ZERO bab masak memasak.

ZERO.EMPTY.BLANK.

Talking about recipes with is like you are talking in totally different language. as if you are coming from Pluto and you are the Plutonians. or perhaps, kamu bercakap bahasa binatang sehingga ia sukar ditafsir kewarasan akal fikiran.

Before i even engage to my hubby, my mom telah membuat pengakuan berani mati on behalf of me walaupun saya tak mintak kepada my future in law (pada masa itu) regarding anak-perempuan-saya-yang-tergedik-nak-kahwin-tu-sebenarnya-tak-tahu-pun-masak.
see? there is two different thing between tak tahu and tak pandai.
if my mom cakap, dia tak pandai masak is more like referring to : dia tak la pandai masak semua masakkan, tapi tau la masak sikit2. but she using DIA TAK TAHU MASAK instead.
finee! i have the coolest mom in the world which telling my future mother-in-law that her super beloved daughter is ZERO in cooking. sangat KAYU bab masak.
alhamdulillah, my in law still terima dengan hati terbuka "Takpa la, esok lusa dah kahwin pandai la dia masak".
Amin.

1. Yes..my mom just taknak my future mother in law expect saya tahu masak and rasa tipah tertipu apabila dah kawen only to discover, err..menantu dia potong bawang pun senget-senget.
2. And of course, my super sweet mother in law sangat positif perihal ini.

tipula saya kata kalau nasi pun tak reti masak. oi! tu basic orang melayu tuh. masak nasi and goreng telur mata kerbau kalau tak tau jangan la jadi orang melayu. baik jadi orang uganda ->ke orang uganda pun tahu?
of course saya tahu masak nasi, goreng telur, masak maggi kari, masak maggi indo mi, masak air dan panaskan lauk dalam microwave ->eh..panaskan tu kire masak ke?

Alhamdulillah..ever since saya berkahwin, banyak sungguh perkembangan yg dirasakan.
selain perkembangan fizikal, pengembangan berat badan serta pengembangan size baju, saya berjaya memasak. kahkahkah..tidakla sehebat Iron Chef. gler kau. dah name nye buta kuali ade hati nak setanding mereka.

saya sudah tahu membuat nasi goreng. hooorayyy!
sudah tahu membuat ayam masak merah. hoooorayyyy!
sudah tahu memasak sphagetti (setelah diajar oleh sang suami). hooorraaaayy!
sudah tahu memasak ayam masak kicap (pun suami yg ajar). hoooooraaaayyy!
sudah tahu memasak sambal sotong dan sambal udang. hhuuuuuraaaahhh!
and few dishes yg lain.

alhamdulillah...walaupun ia seperti level kepandaian memasak kanak-kanak berusia 8tahun, saya tetap nak happy. eh, at least tak la makan kedai tiap hari kan?

everyday i will browsing internet for simple recipes.
mcm macaroni cheese etc.
mama kata slow2 and praktis selalu.

my in law juga sangat supportive. mengajak saya bersama membuat roti jala dan kuah durian last weekend.
oh nyahhh! i dah rasa level chef wan. tapi i chef two je. kang sama dengan chef wan tak terlarat plak nak dapat offer masak memasak kat tibi nih.

and to Anne & Nady. this two girl always inspired me with all this plutonians talked in fb or blog. bake cakes, cuppies, masak itu and masak ini. gulp! yes..compare to this two ladies...i'm waaaay behind.
but still..saya berjalan itik ke arah itu...

Anne, thanks for the caramel recipes for the dummies. hope both of you and nady come out with a book "COOKING INSTRUCTION BOOK FOR THE DUMMIES..to someone like Aimi".