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craving for fish and chip. and here I am dine all alone by myself. rasa sgt looser

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Perkahwinan Jarak Jauh ~~!

Who said shopping is a good theraphy? or maybe part of the theraphy?
it wasnt work on me~! i mean, it wasnt works on me now, but used to. *blush*

i miss hubby badly. i know. its just the 3rd day of the week. and readers, sure all of you akan cakap "dia dah buat dah..dah buat dah perangai meroyan dia tu"
T_____T
tried to shop online untuk menghabiskan sisa-baki duit gaji. wahhahaha... duit gaji bersisa. kagum bukan?
sangat tipu. actually menghabiskan duit yg sepatutnya disimpan.
but, hati sangat kosong, jiwa sangat lara. nothing fancy or nothing can impressed me at this moment.
sadis~~!!!

I just wish i could have a place call home. i know, our kulim house consider home. what i mean here is, home whereby i balik kerja, i could be with hubby. do house chores like normal married couple yang lain setiap hari. at least cook dishes *oh! sangat menipu kot this part*, paling tidak, boleh buat breakfast for hubby every morning.

i just wish i could simpan my luggage bag inside the cupboard or away dari pandangan mata. every weekend my luggage bag is my bestie. and now, most of the time, i didnt even unpack it. coz i knew by friday i need to pack and go somewhere. eh bukan! bukan melarikan diri, but either heading up north or heading to my parent house. why shoud i unpack everything right?

i just wish i could spend my weekend in a real peace. no hurry on friday evening. take my sweet time finishing my kerja di opis.

everything seems so complicated and not in place at the moment. yes, we does argue. but not like normal married couple seperti who suppose to do the dishes? or who suppose to clean up the table after dinner?, or who suppose to do the laundry this week? we argue on, who suppose to spend the weekend at where.

exhausted is my new nickname. but i'm use to it by now. my mom,aunties and even my sis tanya "tak penat ke?" yes, penat! korang yg dengar pun sure penat. sticking your butt for 6hrs is not comfortable at all and far from enjoying it. or at least, kalau hubby was the one who suppose to travel back to central, i still need to go back to klang. another 1.5hrs drive perhaps.
ko ingat best? meh try! and alhamdulillah, we've been doing this more than 2months now and another more months to come.
badan rasa lunyai. urat sendi rasa dah tak larat. kaki rasa dah tak mampu nak melangkah.
by monday, your energy need to reach 100%. need to do full swing kerja. its monday everyone. and this company is operating 24/7 which meaning to said that saturday and sunday there will be things pending at your queue and you need to finish it.

and everything seems incomplete.
felt like boyfren and girlfrenover weekdays.
phone and sms.
and email sometimes.
does it sufficient? no! not at all.

i miss his kisses.
i miss his hugs.
i miss to listen to his stupid jokes eventhough sometime i felt like knocking his head with those jokes.
i miss to do the groceries with him.
i miss to listen to his deep breath when he was asleep.
i miss to lay down on his tummy when we watch tv.
i miss to distract his attention when he is watching football.
i miss to lay down on bed reading my novel and knowing he is next to me reading his photogrpahy book *photography ye, bukan pornograhy*.
i miss to be in his arm through the night.
and above all, i just miss every single thing about him.

p/s: weekend salu cepat je berlalu. jahat betul. sapa yang putarkan laju2 jam time weekend ni? nk ketuk tangan dia ni.

p p/s : dear my fren anne, selamat menunaikan umrah~~! selamat pergi dan balik. doakan saya ye cik anne. and nady, pls jangan nangis2 rindu anne. i'm just a phone call away =))

birthday gift...!! finally dapat =))

Its Monday m0orning again.
yes! your friend still in monday blues. wahahah... still missing my hubby ~~!!

its really tiring travelling during the long weekend. on Friday, both vasanthee and i travelling up north from the opis at 6pm. and only reached kulim at 1am. wohooo~!! seems like everyone balik kampung for the wesak day huh?
and yesterday, we left Penang at 5.30pm and only reached seremban at 11.30pm. 2 accidents happen along the penang-central stretch causes very poor traffic. tau la orang malaysia ni kan, suka nak amik tahu konon2 nak buat pengajaran (termasuk saya!). dah tu slow2 kan kete tengok. padahal all the cars involved in accidents dah kat tepi jalanraya.

going back to Kulim again this weekend and yep! driving.
pity isteri ini bukan? nak wat cmne. hubby working on the weekend. dah tu terpaksa tipah berkorban apa saja. i bet this coming weekend pun traffic will be very bad. ye la, cuti sekolah and everyone seems nak balik kampung hantar anak2 jumpa nenek and atok rite? luckily monday is a replacement cuti agong. but still, i need to go back on sunday night. monday tu nak gi amik surat nikah. wuhuhuhu..nikah dah berbulan baru nak gi amik. kalau kne tangkap basah tak pasal2 je kne nikah sekali lagi. ekekkeke...wat malu omak den je kalau kne tangkap basah dgn suami sendiri. and also, nak bawak mama ke jln TAR. Kes baju melayu abang2 dan ayah den tak settle lagi. only on tuesday morning straight away balik seremban.
another tiring weekend i must say.

Langkawi trip is cancelled. wahahah....sedih tipah ni. nasib tipah tak jadi kassim selamat nangis. no more room available. of course la kan. dh la long weekend, semua org dah tempah setahun awal. eh..menipu sangat tu setahun awal. mcm semua org dh tempah awal la kan. but still, ada hikmah disebaliknya. ecewah! berbakti dengan mertua dgn pulang ke rumah mertua ku. dah tu tak reti2 lagi nak bangun awal. sama je ko laki bini ni aimi. matahari dh pacak baru nak bangun. eh,tapi saya bangun awal sket dr suami. pkl 10am baru bangun. alasan, penat la travel. ekekekek..nasib ibu mertua awal2 pagi lagi dah gi ngaji. dah tu by the time dia balik, menantu dah bangun. sungguh mcm hantu la menantu dia ni. dh tu celik2 bijik mata, tu dia.... breakfast dah siap. dengan air2 sekali. siap 2-3jenis makanan lagi tu. ada rojak, ada nasik lemak, ada bihun. ni yg syg ibu mertua ku ni. memahami jiwa menantu yg mcm hantu ini.

and the rest of the weekend? spend time dengan hubby.
golek2 depan tv. do some house chores. kemas rumah, basuh baju. went for movie, Letter to Juliet seems Prince of Persia full house.
went to queensbay and gurney plaza. do a little shopping. baik bukan ayat. a little shopping.

and celebrating our engagement anniversary~~!! oh! sudah satu tahun kami bertunang.
tak kire, walau dah kawen, tetap mahu celebrate setahun usia pertunangan.
last year on May 30th, saya sangat teruja to be his fiance. and a year later, i am beyond that excitement. saya sudah menjadi wifey beliau =))

and ya~! hubby sudah memberikan hadiah hari jadi saya. soooo belated la kan. but worth to wait for =))
sungguh sakai kawan kamu ini. exploring the birthday gift. sangat sukaaa~~!!
i got the andriod phone. ya nady, saya join club kamu. its desire by HTC *sila google kalau nk tgk. mls nak tempek pic. kang nmpk sangat berlagak*
ahahahha... hubby ckp : "ni merangkumi hadiah for every anniversary/event sepanjang thn ini." ->meaning, no more pressie. sobsobsob...
hubby try to get the phone earlier but no stock. kerna ia super new in town i guess. then to get the accesories juga tiada. apek kedai HTC tu kata "ini barang baru ma...u datang next week la" when saya mahu beli the screen protection. "amoi, ini beli handphone manyak canggih u pandai pakai ka?" wakakak...hamik ko. apek HTC tu tanye terkedu tipah kat situ. saya gelak2 je la. sah2 la tak tau nak pakai. bile Muaz cakap about the market, download apps. phew!berpeluh tipah mencarik.
tipah tak tau bang!! tipah baru je keluar dari Gua Niah.

dah..nak kembali buek kijo den. berlambak tu ha menunggu untuk disettelkan.

pics taken time dinner korean food kat Seoul Garden. sempena ulangtahun pertunangan!!