weight vs diet!

i'm fat!!! yup....totally fat. i mean, not as fat as Syanie tapi still plus size! a bit chubby got additional spare tyre (seriously!!! its really a nightmare). I used to be so skinny during my chilhood time. i bukan la lahir2 je besar. plus, my family sume kuruih2. my sis weight just 39kg when she got married and now only 41kg. can u imagine she is just 41kg? she already have three kids ok. so i sgt JEALOUS with her! she can ate anything and tak perlu rasa guilty about that. And me? ok, i notice berat i naik since i in form 4. tak la naik mendadak but naik sket2 and lama jadi tembam. hikhikhik... time kat uni bdn i mcm yoyo. sekejap turun, sekejap naik. ye la, time study byk berjln & berjimba2 dgn kwn2. so bdn pun mcm yoyo. And now? i consider this is as my nightmare sepnjng usia i 23thn. iya! berat bdn saya telah naik mendadak sebyk 7kg. saya ulang sekali lagi, 7kg semenjak saya bekerja. oh tidak!!!!!!!! Now i have 23days to go before my engagement. shit! i kene nmpk cantik which mean kalau nak nampak cantik anda kena kurus ->definition by semua makhluk dunia di mana cantik adalah apabila anda mempunyai badan ramping seperti KERENGGE atau seramping BIOLA. Adakah org gemuk/plus size tidak cantik? err...mungkin wajahnya cantik atau mungkin dia benar2 cantik pada hakikatnya tp di sebabkan plus size matter dia no longer consider as cantik. DISKRIMINASI! yup..kesian pada insan2 yg plus size mcm saya! ok, i know i tak cantik (wajah ok) tapi bukan ku pinta untuk jd plus size. i'm still can fit size M or L. My BMI is still NORMAL but actually it doesnt seems NORMAL when u wear M or L. u only NORMAL in the other people eyes if u wear XS or S. PATHETIC!!! Bukan i mintak bdn plus size cmni kan. My incik Hafiz never complain about my weight. He said size doesnt matter and die cakap for him my size normal. ok, itu die ckp sbb die my fiance-to-be. of course he does not want hurt my feeling. cube dia ckp right infornt my face "dear, i ase u gemuk la. u shud loose some weight" waaaa...mau i straight away terjun dr my office building. huhuhuhu.... 1) Diet Seperti biasa solution yg biase kte dengar anda perlu berdiet. jgn mkn bla..bla..bla.. i noe, ade 2 org teman baek saya An*e & B*zl* telah avoid utk memakan nasik utk sekian lama and both of them tlh berjaya to loose some pounds. me & nasik? oh, saya sgt pure melayu. its running in my blood vessel. i ase i kuar2 je dr perut my mama i already ask for nasik!! susah =( 2) Exercise Ha? ape die? Exercise? ulang balik sekali lagi EXERCISE? god!!! ini adalah perkara paling torture dalam hidup. oh my god! saya tidak akan mendera diri saya. tidak sama sekali! saya sgt menyayangi badan saya sama seperti saya sayang nyawa saya. exercise adalah satu jenis penderaan terhadap tubuh. oh, saya tidak akan membiarkan bdn saya berpeluh2 and kepenatan disebabkan exercise, berpeluh tak seksi okay! (mcm la gemuk tu seksi kan?). But i hate exercise so much. last nite i had this conversation dgn incik hafiz. so, i was thinking nak ke gym. even though my office ade gym yg u boleh attend at anytime, but for me, kalau i byr bru i ase terpkse pergi else i tak kan pergi coz i tak rase membazir. leh tak camtu? so, bg memastikan bdn i kuruih nk mampus time kawen nnt by this June i akan mula mendera diri ini. maaf kan saya incik tubuh! bukan iat di hati membuat begitu. tetapi anda sgt tidak cooperative dlm membantu saya membuang lemak di bdn. pls..pls..pls...doakan i manage utk pergi everyday kerana saya akan membayar sejumlah wang yg agak besar di fitness centre tersebut. 3) Lippo suction. Skip!! not going. takut mati & tak mampu nak bayar 4) Slimming Center Saya ingin pergi! ingin pergi sama sekali! but gaji saya belum rm4k utk membenarkan saya pergi. maafkan saya london weight management. maafkan saya slimming sanctuary. saya telah gagal meng"kaya"kan anda semua. Nak nampak CANTIK, anda kena kuruih. Itulah hakikatnya... sgt sedih!!!

its SUNDAY!!!

wah...rasenye boleh dikire dgn jari if hari AHAD i tak pergi kemana-mana.. yes! saya tidak ke mana2 kerana mogok dgn incik hafiz. we have a little argument and seperti biase incik hafiz kita mls nak merumitkan keadaan dia pura2 terima pandangan saya. oh! itu sgt menyakitkan. i noe.. i noe..i'm a bit complicated. kadang2 me,myself pun tak paham dgn diri saya (err..camtu pun boleh ke?). sometime i'm happy kalau dia just ikutkan aje what i said but sometime ase piss off. i noe hafiz ni jenis tak kuasa nak lawan2 gaduh. oh! sepanjang bersama dgn cinta hati saya ni, paling lama kiteorg gaduh/majuk not more than 24hrs. believe it or not? kiteorg tak biasa gaduh lama2. he is so patient and soft. so kalau i still insist nak menang, dia ikutkan aje even though i tau he is not happy with that. i tau, i seorang yg KEJAM! (mintak ampun byk2 ye incik hafiz!) As a result, incik hafiz telah ke opis. ye! beliau telah ke opis pada hari ahad kerana mungkin majuk dgn saya. padan muka saya! kan dah nyesal tak dapat ke Queensbay. takpe2...simpan duit nak kahwin!!! (cara pujuk hati sendiri). Tgk NONA and saw my matriks fren (Herlena) as one of the finalist! wow...sgt mengkagumi dia. we use to be quite close back then. so proud of her coz dia ada courage yg sgt besar nak kuar depan tv. if me? ohhh tidak...nak present dlm department pun agak terkulat2. wah..ini kan pulak nak muncul depan tv. mau tak tidur 7hari 7mlm nervousnya itu. buhsan, mari kite berjemaah ZZZZZzzzzzZZZZ... (padan muka incik hafiz! i dh tido...jgn kacau or offer pegi queensbay. majuk!!!)

SEARCH concert aka Wet Party!!!

Yup! its 2am in the morning now. tak dapat nak titon so decided nak online. Wah.... so much thing nak cter pasal the SEARCH concert, call me sakai, i noe..i noe..its just a search concert where i'm not a big fan after all kan? hikhikhik...but believe it or not i sgt2 enjoy the concert. weeee..around 7pm kiteorg reach at McD Sbrng Jaya. aktiviti ini bagi memastikan perut tdk kosong yg mana boleh mengudang rasa cepat marah. As always, i makan Chicken Mc Deluxe while incik hafiz kite telah makan bubur ayam + burger. wah...hari ni selera incik hafiz bertambah. drop by kat petronas on the way ke konserto itu. beli red bull. takut half way concert i dah tak larat nak berdiri. =)) Reach there at 8pm. ok, ujan renyai2..takpe...ade 2 raincoat in my crossbody and ade payung cukup bsr di bawa bersama. sampai kat tmpt check ticket ade pulak celcom girl tu tanye psl tiket which i'm not quite sure la kan sbb bukan i yg beli tiket pun. then we got gelang tgn where she mention about coz celcom user and bla..bla..bla...dpt spesel tempat and i dah tak berape nak dengar sebab time tu dh teruja nak masuk je. masuk2 je luckily org tak ramai sgt lagi. maybe org hesitate nak gi ke tak coz gerimis kan? then tetibe ade satu brader dlm spesial cage panggil both of us. mula2 terpinga gak then dia tnye psl gelang yg kteorg pki and die suruh msk spesial cage tu (which also known as blue zone). ulang suara, kteorg MASUK SPECIAL CAGE!!! yeaaaa...and believe it or not cage ni betul2 bawah stage and we manage to get ourself at the front row. ya!! super duper depan smpi u boleh cium bau ketiak amy search time nyanyi...ahhahahah.... (perumpamaan okay!). yea..1st time in mylife pegi concert dpt ddk front row and VIP cge tau. now i'm really proud to be one of the celcom user yg tak pernah fail bayar bil setiap bulan and dh tak kan marah2 celcom kalau dia barred my phone again (aiseh, bab ni still kne consider sbb celcom sgt leceh time nak unbarred even dh bayar! manyak songeh da...) When the concert just about to start gerimis renyai2 bertukar menjadi ujan menggila.wah...sudah sejuk and tak tahan. nasib ade bantuan raincoat and payung. then nabila huda keluar...intro sket2 then abrulah search kuar. PEMBETULAN di sini!!! Incik Hafiz adalah PEMINAT SEARCH!!! waaaaa...believe it or not! saya baru discover malam ni. dlm sume lagu SEARCH tu i only knew two of it. of course lagu ISABELLA and FANTASIA BULAN MADU. The rest? err...no idea. pathetic kan kalau kite pergi concert tu tapi tak tahu lagu? luckily incik hafiz ade bersama menjadi amy search disebelah saya utk menyayikan lagu itu. hikhikhik.... yg best ddk depan, nmpk clear gler muke all the guitarist & amy search himself but i hate all the lightings and asap2 api tu. sgt panas!!!! even hari ujan tp i tetap kepanasan. Next to us ade one couple whereby wife die is preggie lady!!! IYA!! die mengandung dan pergi ke konsert. waaahhh.. i dpt tgk her tummy. think must be 5mnths pregnant. aiseh...ngandung2 pun pergi concert ke kak? err..its raining and she doesnt bring along any umbrella or raincoat.wah! cukup selamba. i yg ber"rain coat" and umbrella ni pun dh nak kne frost bite (betul ke ejaan?) tapi die selamba rock je ngn laki die terlompat2... alahai...takut je terkuar baby tu akak oi... if i'm in her shuz, i lbh rela ddk dirumah nonton tv or pegi muvie kt GSC.TGV dr berhujan kt situ. ish, kang anak kuar bknnye nangis dlu, tp nyanyi lagu isabella plak kan? After 3hrs berdiri didlm hujan. finally concert pun abes. and iya...tepat sekali. tgn kecut, bdn sejuk2 and kaki lenguh. Incik Hafiz pls take note, tomorrow session bershopping MUNGKIN akan dibatalkan kerana kaki saya sudah lenguh tahap gaban. hafiz kepenatan and kesejukkan. masuk kete terus tukar baju!

Balik, cepat2 mandi air panas and mungkin sebab dah ter"over dose" minum red bull, saya tidak berjaya utk menyuruh diri saya tidur and terpakse online sambil nonton Deja Vu. Pen off. Adios.